In the shower this morning,
after a long night of restless sleep,
after not being able to fall asleep,
after spending time with good friends (old and new) and eating good food,
after watching a movie amongst good people,
after shaking and trembling after a rough therapy session
I thought of fracking.
And how I generally don’t think fracking is a good thing.
I am searching for something that is completely unrelated
To something I once sought after many years ago.
But they share a vein under the surface.
It doesn’t seem right, or fair that this should be happening.
I can’t stop my current search,
This is not an option.
But I gave up on the original search many years ago.
This should not be coming up.
These are unintended consequences
in an emotional sense.
Tectonic shifts that threaten
The foundation built of
A lifetime of dreams.
Sinkholes and explosions
Undermine ones existence.
If the reasons you have worked hard
Stop holding their value
What then do you work hard for?